This story is 6 years old, but I think really important to read and share.
Some people- for reasons very possibly beyond their control- struggle with really sick and twisted urges. Urges to rape, to torture, to molest, even to murder. To permanently scar if destroy the lives of kids. Whether caused by upbringing or some chemical imbalance in the brain or who knows what else, the science is still out on that.
These urges can be powerful and it is possible that with they may never go away.
However what isn’t inevitable is that they must be acted upon.
The man described in the article was well on his way to becoming a serial rapist if not a serial killer. He drove around in his car with pull ties, axes, and knives in his trunk, planning out the perfect murder. He even picked up a woman hitchhiker who, according to his own testimony, he intended to attack and murder but when she began talking to him he stopped himself and drove her home. She never realized how close she came to probably dying that night.
He knew that what he wanted to do was wrong, and struggled with depression and attempted suicide more than once.
He decided to do something. He checked himself into a Sexual Behaviour Clinic in Ottawa. He went for therapy, and learned to control these demons inside him.
Aside from his parents and the person he is currently dating, no one knows this side of him. Not even his employer, even though he has a job working with youth who are among the most at risk from people like him. And no one needs to know.
The clinic he went to works with people who are sexual offenders and tries to get them to reform. In my opinion, once a person has done something like a rape or murder they shouldn’t ever be released from prison and ideally should be put to death.
The really inspirational part though are people like this guy who check themselves in voluntarily, people who realize they have a real problem and who decide that they will GET HELP instead of harming another human being. People like that are in my view role models for the rest of us.
I don’t know who or how many people read my posts, but there is a possibility that one of you may have urges like this. Obsessions and wants and fantasies that you know are violent and wrong and that you know would traumatize or destroy another human being.
This doesn’t make you a bad person. This doesn’t make you despicable. This doesn’t make you evil.
It does mean however you probably need help.
It is possible to get help.
You don’t need to rape or to murder or to molest someone. You also don’t need to kill yourself. In fact, you shouldn’t do these things.
You don’t need to lose your freedom, your family, your job, your soul.
Help is out there and it’s your right and responsibility to get it.
https://globalnews.ca/news/1656981/i-thought-id-be-that-way-forever-how-do-you-treat-a-violent-sex-disorder/
